I don't know as well...

But burdened with too much in your head? bibi tum London mein bhi preshan si kiuyn ho? "I dont know..." you'd say, and probably that IS the right answer.... because life is always this complicated... but this burden starts feeling on your head only when you are unable to resign yourself to it, to surrended to it... it looks like a rebellion initially, but since the victory is at best a reconciliation, this rebellion is no more than the futile effort of Sisyphus to reach the top and stay there. He'd never stay.

Some people do solve the jigsaw, but in an instantaneous epiphany. You can't look for it, or worry about it. It comes like a divine blessing. If there were any other way, the thousands of philosophers in the last two thousand years would have found it.